people aren't medicine
i used to thinkthe years would go by in order,
that you get older one year at a time
but it's not like that
“Clay…. Helmet. Your name does not belong on this list. But you need to be here if I’m going to tell my story. If I’m going to explain why I did what I did. Because you aren’t every other guy. You’re different. You’re good, and kind, and decent. And I didn’t deserve to be with someone like you. I never would.”